I felt awful, I felt like a wreck for the last 7 days of my life. Partly was because of the thesis writing that increased my life's stress level, partly was because of the thing that some of you had already knew, and partly was because of the extension of the thing that some of you had already knew.
It went so bad the past few days till I really cannot take it anymore. I cant stand at home without trying not to break down every now and then. Finally, Saturday came. I finally got myself away from home and went to Ah Dear. I cried and cried and cried and cried like mad, releasing all the tension and the stress that was building up from the point I started writing my thesis till Friday. It seemed impossible to stop. But obviously I did la. The hugs and kisses, the hand that wiped off all the tears, and the voice telling me that everything will be alright because he is around healed my super raw wound.
What am I to do without you, my dear?
Of course, I cannot underestimate the power of my girlfriends around me. The listening ears meant a lot to me to. BUT! Everything took a sudden turn on Friday. Something that I cannot cope with just crying alone in my room under my blanket could help anymore.
And definitely, the Mayday concert that was so awesome, helped me released a lot of emotions too. I rmb that I wasn't really hyped when we were at the concert. But all the screaming and the singing definitely released a lot of emotions.
Saturday took off all possible energy within me, but it managed to restore my life to near normal. The fatigue was worthwhile. I slept almost the whole Sunday away.
And suddenly, my thesis seems alright to me when it looked like shit on Friday.
I think I've won the battle.
Thank you all.
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