I will get there.

Sometimes when you look at loving couples, you start thinking, "I wish for a relationship like this".

Sometimes when you attend weddings, you will start thinking, "I wish my boyfriend will propose soon."

Sometimes when you look at blissful wedding photos of friends around you, you will start thinking, "I wish I am preparing for the wedding as well".

Sometimes when you look at blessed pregnacies, you will start thinking, "I wish I can have a baby right now too."

Sometimes when you play with little children, you will start thinking, "I wish I can take care of my own children too".

Sometimes when you look at friends' travel photos, you will start thinking, "I wish I have all the money to travel around the world too".

Sometimes when you see your friends being fetched around by cars, you will start thinking, "I wish someone will drive me around too".

Sometimes when you see your friends talk fondly about their family, you will start thinking, "I wish my family can be more like that".

There will always times like this. Happening over and over and over and over and over again. But I have learned something through the days. Everything that I wanted will be given to me by our God. And that is what faith is all about. Believing in something that you cannot see. Wait for the manifestation, look back and get really surprised.

In spite of all these, I always know what I want in my life. And it had always been my lifelong dream that had not changed no matter how circumstances of my life changes. And I know that Jesus will get me get there. I cannot do it, but He can. Amen.