My Big Lord gave me something even more precious.

I had been praying every single night for the entire week to the Lord that He will be with me as I collect the datasets this trip.

Well, I did not get anything of course (judging from my letter to SOX). But yet, I did not blame Him at all. I was trying to think, what is it that he has in house for me because I know He will never desert me because he is a BIG and GOOD God.

You know what? I think He just gave me the answer.

Having results is not everything. Yes, if we have results will definitely be good. But, He gave me something even better. He gave me the confidence of working here at the synchrotron. I feel so much more confident operating all the softwares, collecting the datasets, screening my crystals. I don't feel like a student tagging behind people's back anymore. I feel like I AM A RESEARCHER, just like all of them, alongside with them. I am able to talk like I am one of them. Even though I don't have that much experience, I have so much more confidence now.

And, He also imparted a lot of knowledge through Fariborz today. It made me realized that I actually have not been doing what a scientist should be doing and thinking how a scientist should be thinking. I have not been really having a mind of myself. I haven't done my best actually. I had been immature but that means I have the power to grow. So, asking for results right away is probably not the right time now. He lighted a pathway for me tonight.

Praise the Lord! Hallelujah!