No money no talk.

Hmm.. I never really thought that I had so many hospital bills sia.. I just go and go and go and go, pay and pay and pay and pay without thinking too much about the accumulation of the bills. But ytd, when I was trying to sort out the papers so that I can arrange a meeting on the claiming of the insurance, I realised, there is really a lot of bills sia.. Medisave did cover the more expensive part already. But all the outpatient specialist appointments as well as the medicines add up to a little sum too sia.. Gosh! No wonder I had been feeling so poor despite spending sooooo pathetically little. Can you imagine it? I did my sums, and I only spend like $25 bucks on FOOD the whole month!! Lol!



And haha, after everyone (ok, only 2 of them) got their calls to go down for the interview, I began to wonder will I ever get the call? And all of the sudden, halfway through the thought, I realised, I CHANGED MY PHONE NUMBER WITHOUT TELLING THEM!! Gosh. This is pretty much terrible isnt it? Imagine that they had called me and I din pick up cos my number is not in service.. Lol. Well, I've divert all calls to the new number le. Ha! But then ar.. I did actually said before that, hmm, heh, I would wish to start the phd after working for a few months. At least, I would be able to earn a little more money before downgrading to that miserable bit of money. So, I'm not exactly disappointed that I din get the call. Lol. But of course, if the call do come, I would welcome it definitely.. HAHA! It's just that the sense of loss isnt really very big because I do have some erm, monetary thoughts going around my brain.........

But wells, money is so evil. It can control me soooo much..... And I bet it can destroy me soooo much too. But I know, everything will end. Haha. I'm going to be part of the grp who have to worry that we nida apply for the flat now! Because our combined pay is over the limit set by the govt! Lol.

But whatever is the case, I love what I am doing now. (Ok, minus the tuitions.) Although I dun really feel very happy nowadays. It's not that there's something bothering me. It's not that I am fighting with someone. It's not that I dun like the people ard me (ok, tt's not very absolute a sentence). But, I guess, I really feel very very tired. Physically tired. With all the work going on. And the medicine killing me. And me always waking up so early despite the time I slp. I'm soooo drained of energy. So, it takes so much more effort to laugh along with others, to be soooo enthu in whatever I do, to be sooooo high in front of everyone. Result, I would rather walk away from the crowd so that I can stone and dun have to put in that extra effort at all. =X I hope the long weekend will cure me off this tirednesssssssss.

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