Yes, call me superstitious. Haha. But, I had always believe in praying to wen chang ye. Hehs. It was a few years back that someone told my parents that I should go and pray to wen chang ye and not kong zi cos I was really having so much difficultly in studying. I'll get so damn stressed. I'll study really hard, but my results is still not there. And I must have started my gastric history back at secondary school ba.. Lol.
But in Year1/2 in uni, i started going to wen chang ye before my exams to ask him to lend me some energy to sit down and study. I dun nid him to grant me the grades (because you should never do that! things dun come just lidat!). And after the results came out, I'll always go back and thank him for his help because my results really got improve every single semester (ok, minus that year 3 with the stupid cancer bio module. Haha!). And from then on, I believe more and more in him, and I love more and more what I am studying and doing.
Upon the submission of my phd applications, my parents decided that it is time for us to go and ask him to help me again. Lol. So that's what I did. So, I spoke to him for really long again (I love talking to him. And I think he's listening to me leh!) But so irritating, somone kneeled beside me and tried to talk to him too! Confuse him how?! Haha. But, well, the main thing was.... I drew a lot again. The last one was a really good one, and I bet that's why I had crystals so quickly. Hehs. But today, it was so diff to get a lot. I tried soooo many many times. And then, finally, lot 58.
But damn! It's a super bad lot!! It tells me to stop new ventures and continue on with the old one! Especially if it involves money. Hmmm..... So this is what I interpret.
1. Do not work. Continue to study. Good, I am going to get into graduate school.
2. Do not stop teaching individual tuitions. That was the boldest decision I've ever made since I started teaching tuition. All the while, I was really tired, but I did not stop because I need the money. But after the hospital stay, I decided that I really cannot be so tired. And, I really wanna concentrate on my studies. I think, it is time to go back to the tuitions again. I just applied for one. I looked at other applicants, I think, I stand such a bigger chance as compared to them! Lol!!
3. Do not go to the tuition center. It's really a new thing that I've done to replace my individual tuitions. True that the people gives me a lot of freedom to do what I want. BUT! I have to prepare everything for them. Teaching materials, syllabuses, teaching plans. It's taking me way more time and effort than individual tuitions. If I really get the biology job that I am applying, I think, I am really going to give up the tuition center.
Haha. I'm so going to make the bad lot into a good future for me. Haha! And urm, I really really really believe in them de leh. Hehs. Somemore, I used alot of effort just to get that lot you know? Haha.
Oh by the way, I have the wen chang pagoda at home. And a mini one at my office. Hehs. I think. It's helping me get crystals. Gee! I have to bring my paint brush and my notebook there too le. I need bigger and chubbier crystals. Well diffracting crystals. Plus, solved structures. Hehs.!
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