I'm a little ashame of myself

I feel that it's the devil at work again.

The devil is telling me:

"Hey, you think you are doing a good deed? By asking people to donate to you so that you can donate to the charity? No man. You are not! Instead of donating directly to the organizations, what are you doing? You are merely enjoying yourself with the money that other people had given you! Talk about throwing a birthday party for them, talk about granting wishes of others. Ha! Seriously, you meant to have in a way too right? And seriously, there is some hidden agenda right?"

Urm, Mr Satan, thank you for telling me all these straight in my face. First thing first, I am the righteousness of God in Christ. Even when there are bad thoughts, there are bad actions, I don't think I should be condemned because, Jesus Christ took all my condemnations, sins, sufferings, illnesses on the cross for me. So, hey, stop condemning me!

Next, thank you for bringing out something else through your condemnations. You made me realized that I shouldn't be doing things for my own enjoyment. Ya, it is probably lovely to see the smiles I lighted myself. But I realized that by pumping the money in as a general donation, it is going to generate even more money and make more children even happier/healthier. And so, my final decision is to just donate the money to CCF directly. And, thank you for letting me spot on the next volunteering assignment!

And by the way, I think I have done a great job by raising this bit of donations. So many of my friends are like pledging so much more money than I had thought they would pledge. Don't small look the money. A little goes a long way!

Shame on you devil. You think you can affect me? Think again! I curse you in Jesus name. Amen!