My Darby is the center of my Universe.

I have this center of the universe, this central pillar of my life, this very important person in my life.

Without him, I'm sure I will be able to survive. I won't die and I will be able to survive. It'll just a matter of time. But I'm sure, I will miss him very the much. Maybe shed a tear whenever I think of him. Maybe, I will have to change a lot of things, throw a lot of things away, delete a lot of things away because he is that central in my life and every single thing is somewhat related to a piece of our memory together.

I always need sometime to adjust back to life with him as the central part of my life everytime he goes missing for a few weeks, be it for exams or work or ns or me going away for a while. And during this adjustment period, I will stop having the stirs in my heart, the stupid smile that I cannot wipe off, the feeling of wanting to cling on to him, do all sorts of things with him, talk about our future together, wanting to be very near him, appearing small beside him, wanting to depend on him. And even if I do, I did it not because I desire but because I think I have to do it. And it's periods like this that I would wish that I can just stay at home and spend quality time with myself and do things that I like to do alone.

All because he is the center of my universe.

Whenever the center is gone, the whole universe starts rocking and I will have to find the means to balance it. And this center comes in again, my universe will start rocking again and I will have to find back the ways to balance it like last time.

Thank God this is just a little transition once in awhile. LOL. If not, I would be wasting precious time feeling bad with myself. Haha.

I love my Darby!!

(Heh. And dear, you are absolutely right last night. Wanting to marry you is to spend the rest of my life together with you, and not because you are that stepping stone to motherhood and early retirement. Haha!)