Today, God blessed me! I know. People is bound to tell me things like "You've worked hard for it." or something along that line. But trust me, crystallography is never never never something that working hard is enough.
Even if I work long hours, it does not mean that I can get good protein. Even if I get good protein does not mean that I get crystals. Even if I get crystals does not mean that I get good diffracting ones. Even if I get good diffracting ones does not mean that I can solve the structure. Don't ever tell me I think too much because these are what I had went through. And these are what that had crashed my morale again and again in the lab. Logic can help you troubleshoot but it cannot (at least now) tell you why you have your structure!
I thank god for his presence and strength in the room together with us today. And thank him for granting my wish of clearing up my projects one by one. I had 2 datasets of K9 with oligos collected. And they were all at least 2.5A. Spots were not that smeary as before. I am terribly anxious about knowing if I had solved the structure but I was seriously going bonkers with fatigue and hunger and Max was waiting for me and so I know I should wait till Monday. If this is what he believes that it's good for me, I'm sure it is. Success is never that sweet if no hard work was put in. So many months of troubleshooting and pondering over WHY did I not reproduce my crystals.
I know, it sounded really really abstract. But, I really want to thank Him for blessing me tonight.
=D
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