What does not kill you will just make you stronger

 

Shihua shared this video on FB. My hair simply stood when the first few notes were played. Craziness. Haha. This, if you don't know, is Persis. And it's one of my favorite piece when we were in the band together, some 10 years ago? Haha. It's a lovely piece but it's pretty challenging because all the high notes. LOL!

And anyway, this set me thinking. We went through SO MUCH when we were in band. We want to skip almost every session, we want to quit band because it was so tedious, taking up so much of our time, we are getting scolded every single band prac. We hate drills, we hate all the punishments and all the running, falling, etc etc. Those were the days where my hand hurts from playing the instrument, my lips super pain from playing the instrument.

But, guess what? We survived it.

And when we think back, everything that happened, whether it's good or bad, was a fond memory (if we remember it). If you give me another chance, I may choose band all over again. For, through it, I met a lot of my friends and buddies and we had loads of fun together. Yes, despite all the 'hardship'. And I guess, that was what made my secondary school days really memorable. From then on, I thought of the hardship and such and I had never tried to touch the waters of any tedious CCA. So, I blurred through my JC days and my uni days.

And that brings me to the point I want to make. What don't kill you will just make you stronger. Without the 4 years in band, I believe, I would be different. Without the troubles at home, I believe, I will take much longer time to grow up and be stronger and change to a better person. Yes, no one says that the process is going to be fun and be a bed of roses. But bang through it, and get a lot of bruises in the process. You may cry and complain and tell everyone that you are having a hell of your life. But I'm so sure that at the end of it, you will smile and tell yourself, "I've did it!" Even if you don't do it, I'm sure you are a changed person. And a much stronger person too!

So, I've made my decision. After my last 2 entries, I realized, the main reason that I don't want to do it was because I'm afraid of the stress. I'm afraid that I cannot do it and pull it through and thus waste 4 years of my life. But soon after, I realized, no. Even if it's 4 years of stress and stress and work and work, it will make me stronger at the end of the 4 years. Life is full of challenges and if we find route to divert instead of picking up the challenges, we will not grow. I've done that before and I regretted wasting my life away that way.