Arrrr..

Typed one whole entry and deleted it away.

But hey. My heart is aching like mad. My dear, this is all so crazy. I have no idea that choosing between my family and my love is such a terrible thing to do. (Not exactly that but it felt almost there to me now.) I never knew I would be in such a situation. But hey, my heart hurt so much that I wanna die. How long do you want me to wait? It's already more than 24 hours.

I survive the entire day on just one sentence. "I don't agree with what you are doing does not mean that I don't love you anymore."

I'll press on. Because I know you care, you love.

But that does not stop me from missing you and needing you. This is a moment I need you so terribly that I am going mad. Never once had you left me to deal with this alone. All the time you will tell me whatever happens, I'll still have you...... Now, my heart feels a little too cold.